The Long Journey Ahead
Psalm 45:10-11 “Listen, O daughter, Consider and incline your ear: Forget your own people also, and your father’s house; So the King will greatly desire your beauty; Because He is your Lord, worship Him.”
In the past few weeks, I’ve expreienced the Lord’s continual tugging on the strings of my heart calling me deeper into the depths of Himself. His love is persuing the closed off places within my soul drawing me into His arms. The daily invitation to dine with Him is amazing. Words really can’t express what I’m feeling. I feel like I can really do all thing through Christ because He is really strengthening me! Its the most beautiful dawn appearing at the end of a death stricken night that I almost did not make it out of.
In the process of “falling in love” with someone, you never see the great unknown until your there. You wake up and you’re like, “What the heck?!” You’re too deep in and you’re too in love to leave. Well, that’s how I feel about this walk with Yeshua. While only a fool could and would deny the Lord’s invitation, I can finally see the cost of it all. My life, dreams, hopes and future is the cost. My family is the cost. Everything and everyone I’ve ever loved and adored is the cost. This is forgetting your own people and your father’s house.
But, is it okay to say that I’m scared? I can feel destiny/eternity knocking on the door. Its more than I could have ever imagined. My mind can’t grasp the science of it all. My hands are still so small too handle it. The light is still too bright for me to make out the shapes and forms within. I’m still weakened and on the floor crying out, “HOLY IS THE LAMB! HOLY THE LAMB!”. There is no strength in my body. I’m waiting for the Lord to touch me and restore me. I know that this journey is cost me everything. This very thing will in the end, cost me my life. Dispite what I know, here I go….
